Weight Gain: 10lb
Stretch Marks: None new. I wonder if you already have stretch marks, if they just get used again, like if they stretch out once more, and just get bigger, or if you actually get new ones?
Maternity Clothes: Completely
Symptoms: Easily winded, stuffy nose, always tired, achy tummy.
Sleep: A little worse lately. My body has been hurting more, and it's been so warm and sticky here.
Best Moment of the Week: Making it to 23 weeks.
Movement: Tons, and she gave Matt a swift kick this morning, it was awesome. I can't see it yet though, because she prefers kicking lower where I can't see my tummy.
Food cravings: I can't remember
Gender: A girl!
What I Miss: Nothing at the moment!
What I’m Looking Forward To: Viability next week. Scared stiff until then, all of a sudden
Milestones: One more week closer to viability?
Emotions: Scared, grateful, excited
And now for some happy news! Back in the fall I was contacted by an old acquaintance, Nancy, and we began talking back and forth, mostly about infertility, which she knew Matt and I had gone through, and which she was experiencing too.Well, she gave me a call today, and it turns out she just found out she's pregnant! She's about 6.5 weeks along, and they just found out a couple days ago, so the lucky girl gets to tick off 2 whole weeks of pregnancy just like that! I wish.
But seriously, it's so exciting to me when someone I know who is experiencing infertility kicks it where it counts and gets pregnant. My heart feels so happy, and I cried tears of joy for her. I just can't believe it! It's even better because doctors told her back in February that her hormone and other tests levels were so low that she'd never get pregnant. Love it!
And what makes it even more joyous is that she's moving back to Canada next month, so she'll be around (YAY) and she get free healthcare, whereas in the States they have to pay $300 for their first ultrasound, and in the thousands of dollars to deliver a baby in the hospital. Yeah, crazy huh? They can't afford health insurance while they're in school, so this is a huge blessing for them, in terms of timing.
I'm not going to lie, one part of me is excited because I feel we can maintain the friendship more easily once she moves back. I wanted to see her once she did, but I was worried about hurting her by showing up all of 32 weeks pregnant. I'm only guessing here, but I think it'd be hard for her, even if she's happy for us, because she's wanted it so very much for herself, and I would have no way to NOT sport a very pregnant belly.
Now, though, she'll be 14 weeks when they move back, and about 15 when I'll see her at a mutual friend's wedding a week later, and I'm so excited!
At the same time, I feel bad for these feelings. I always hated feeling out of the pregnancy and motherhood club, and it bugged me a little feeling so "in" the club once I got pregnant and had Elijah. I'm so incredibly grateful that I don't have to feel hurt or like an outsider when people talk labour and delivery, but it hurts a little because I know there are others that feel out of it and that it pains them. I feel like I'm just being shallow by feeling like now I can include her in the pregnancy club, and that it makes it all better, but in this case, it kind of DOES make things better. Maybe because we both experienced infertility, so now we're back to being the same club?
And I realize how very gradeschool this sounds, talking about clubs and so on. I'm not sure if anyone would get it if they haven't experienced infertility. It's just...that feeling of being excluded from a pivotal part of life while everyone around you moves ahead, and you're just stuck where you are, no matter how hard you try, desire, ache, etc.
Anyway, I'm ecstatic about it. I want to do something for her, but I have no idea what. I'm sure I'll think of something in time though. :)
Oh, and here are some funny things about today:
-Elijah figured out how to open the fridge and brought me the container of raspberries while I was sitting on the couch talking to Nancy. Little monkey!
-I **think** he started imitating me saying "no" to him.
-catching Elijah dipping his hand in the sugar bag and licking his fingers and going back for more, all the while sitting on the deep fryer, using it like a chair
-pointing at something he wants. This is progress, people!
-I went to the midwives this morning to give a urine sample (test for a suspected UTI) and had to bring Elijah in. He had fun wandering around the washroom, but then he noticed the cup I'd peed into and started doing his frantic laugh and flailing his hands, which is what he does when he wants something. He apparently thought that mommy had magically created apple juice! He was upset when I didn't give it to him, and then brought me a new cup. You know, so I could produce magic apple juice again....hahahahhaha
Anyway, I need to read my scriptures before bed, so I should wrap this up.
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